There have been occasional rains lately, short respites from the sweltering heatwave... as I lay here on my tummy... typing away... listening to the soothing raining sounds from outside my windows... felt so calming while I cuddled myself with a warm blanket in my aircon room.
Thinking back to my 5th arm surgery 2 days prior, I did asked the surgeon not to give me too strong dosage of sedation as I did had hard time waking up from my General anesthesia/GA state in the last few surgeries. I am scared if one day I never wake up? I do have several allergies to meds so they are very careful in not giving me too much dosage.
There was one incident when the injection to numb my whole arm went awry, making me got up and started vomiting out bouts of fluids and had to call off the procedure. Later they told me they discovered my right lung collapsed. I can feel the injected drug on my neck didn't go to my right arm but back flow to my right top torso. I think the Anaesthetist misjudged the vein in my neck area as they also said I have a short neck and harder to get the correct point on entry.
So for this round of arm surgery, they only do Local anesthesia/LA by injecting the sedation drug through a drip in my left arm, and other anesthetics drug via sharp needles in the right lower arm where it's being operated on. But despite these drugs, all dialysis mates of mine are terrified of this angioplasty/ballooning procedure coz the pains are really excruciating. And this is my 3rd round so I'm mentally prepared for the pains. 3.5 hours surgery is no joke, man... as I m not fully knocked out like GA, just LA so I practically can listen to everything going on in the surgical room.
Even thought there were complications in the midst of the surgery, I choose to think it's GOD's plan... maybe my original vein was already not ideal so it ruptured upon ballooning. Then the surgeon need to find another more suitable vein to connect to the AV fistula and he did find a more better solid one too. Hopefully with so far 2 times of AV fistula cutting, 3 rounds of angioplasty on just one arm alone, I won't have to do it again so soon. Yes, I was told that angioplasty is a common procedure for blood dialysis patients as their veins will get narrower & thinner with the frequent dialysis and blockage can also happened.
Sigh, so much pains I endured over these past 12 years since my freak incident just to survive. When local media shared my story, I even had people telling me its better for me to die than keep suffering endless procedures to stay alive. I have to stay away from reading their negative comments coz I still have a mentally ill with stroke Hubby to care for, I don't live only for myself. So despite all the challenges, I must go on fighting, surviving. There are so much things yet to do, beautiful people to watch... haha!
8 more days to my actual birthday on May 16th, I'm planning to celebrate with my dialysis nurses, doctor and mates at the centre. But I wish to do something special this year. I'm still goggling for a nice Mexican restaurant, hopefully one with a live band or DJ. I really miss the wonderful fiesta like celebration atmosphere of Latino beats. I can't dance for too long with my current health but just like to sit and groove to a nice band, enjoying light small snacks. But I am not sure if my body is up to task for that coz sometimes my body will just feel weird and passed out. I don't want that to happen outside when I finally set a dinner date with 2 of my female friends the following Friday night after they finished work.
I was even thinking of going to see the museums in town in the day, been a long time. I'm not sure if certain museums are still free of charge for locals. I used to work as security in some of the local museums when I was younger. And yes, night at the museum movies often used to be a great joke with my colleagues back then. That song 'September' from that movie keep looping in my mind now... haha!
Since my medical escort manager was kind enough to charge me a flat rate for a round trip anywhere locally, I was thinking of just going town in the day to do museums hopping, then wait for my female friends to have dinner to celebrate my birthday together.
Maybe I'm trying to find back my precious memories... even those hard working days slogging in my youth to save up to buy my home on my own... these days working in town as a humble security personnel among the tourists area in museums were fun too, meeting people from different countries here to check out SG. I like the way how foreigners are so inquisitive to learn about my SG culture and history, even though most locals don't even go to the free museums.
But the weather is a main concern, as if raining... my electric wheelchair is not so safe out traveling in the rain as wet puddles can caused harm to the battery below. So much consideration to think of just to go out for a day of fun. Or maybe just a place indoor with lot of restaurants and fun places to see? The Resort World Sentosa is a good one but gotten cost me a bomb in there for sure. I think Changi Airport in the east is too far for my medical escort manager as he need to still fetch other dialysis patients in the west. I plan only for destination in town not the other part of SG for saving time on transportation.
Hmmm, later gotten check out the various options. Have you ever visited my SG and the museums here? Or where are the places you have gone to and like?